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Trumpeteers

Triestig is dat, eh. Maar ik versta het wel.

Ik versta het als er mensen zijn die de corruptie van personen zoals de Clintons beu zijn, want dat zijn ze ook, samen met hun hele zogenaamde “Foundation”. Da’s “part of the game,” fair enough, maar enkel zolang er golden times inzitten voor de gewone middenklasse.

Ik versta het als men op Canvas 5 minuten geleden een extra debatje uitzendt en daar De Winter door de moderatoren nog een grapjes krijgt nageroepen: u heeft toch goed van uw tijd gebruik gemaakt. Weet dat er dan duizenden mensen thuis met een zuur hart meekijken. “Wij worden ook uitgejoeld,” denken die dan.

Akkoord met de opsplitsing tussen elite en niet-elite. Dom en slim. Rijk en arm. Maar zo populistisch, dom, en arm zijn die mensen ook weer niet meer.

Ik was als puber nogal extreem-rechts. Ik vind het nu moeilijk om me nog te herinneren waar ik eigenlijk voor stond. Ik ben getrouwd met een buiten-Europese, ben blij als ik kan kennis maken met andere culturen, maar — eerlijk gezegd, en laat ons daar allen dan ook gewoon eerlijk in zijn — soms ook bang. Dat gaat zo. Da’s normaal

Maar daar ging het me vroeger zelfs niet om. Ik dacht gewoon dat conservatief juister was. Meer tering-naar-de-nering. Minder de “profiteurs” ondersteunen. Ik en mijn ouders hadden nooit om iets gevraagd en ook niets gekregen, en onze buren kregen een vette werkloosheidsuitkering. Dat ging er bij mij niet in.

Maar ik was wel voor de vrije markt, voor liberalisme, voor mensen die vrij moesten zijn, grenzen die open moesten zijn. Ik was tegen economische vluchtelingen, tegen uitkeringen, tegen de vakbond.

En dat ben ik eigenlijk nog steeds, maar ik ben trotser om te zeggen dat ik nog voor veel meer dingen voor ben. Om iedereen mijn broeder en zuster te noemen, voor het weghalen van genderongelijkheden, voor het zorgen dat we ieder kind, het maakt niet uit hoe weinig papieren het heeft, te kunnen ondersteunen met een top-educatie. En dat daar mijn verdomde belastingcenten dan maar naartoe gaan, en niet naar die zuurpruim van een ambtenaar. Ik ben voor vrij verkeer van eerlijke mensen, net als ik voor het hard aanpakken van niet-eerlijke mensen ben. Ik ben voor sterke, centrale besturen. Geen landen of federaties of “Vlaanderen” maar misschien wel city-states, maar dan niet met het bouwen van muren en nakijken van anderen.

Ik ben bang voor de wereld van morgen, voor de wereld voor onze kinderen. Dat zeiden mijn grootouders ook al. Maar toch. Op tv blijft men maar door palaveren, maar ondertussen zitten we wel met een fifty-fifty. Het is makkelijk om de twee kampen te benoemen, maar dat zorgt er net voor dat beiden blijven verder afdwalen in extremisme… samen met ISIS en “die mannen”.

Zij die vergeten werden zullen niet meer vergeten worden. Trump, makker, ik hoop het, maar vergeet naast de witte this-or-that collar workers de rest ook niet, sava?

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Uit The Witness.

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One nature, perfect and pervading, circulates in all natures;

One reality, all-comprehensive, contains within itself all realities.

The one Moon reflects itself wherever there is a sheet of water,

And all the moons in the waters are embraced within the one Moon.

The Absolute of all the Buddhas enters into my own being,

And my own being is found in union with theirs….

The Inner Light is beyond praise and blame; Like space it knows no boundaries,

Yet it is even here, within us, ever retaining its serenity and fullness.

It is only when you hunt for it that you lose it;

You cannot take hold of it, but equally you cannot get rid of it,

And while you can do neither, it goes on its own way.

You remain silent and it speaks; you speak, and it is dumb.

The great gate of charity is wide open, with no obstacles before it.

— Yung-chia Ta-shih, circa 700

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Uit The Witness.

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Well, that’s no better a solution than any of the others, is it?

So, in the end, have we learned anything from this look at why the world turned out the way it did that’s of any use to us in our future?
Something, I think. That the key to why things change is the key to everything. How easy is it for knowledge to spread?

And that, in the past, the people who made change happen were the people who had that knowledge, whether they were craftsmen or kings.

Today, the people who make things change, the people who have that knowledge, are the scientists and the technologists who are the true driving force of humanity. And before you say, “What about the Beethovens and the Michelangeloes,” let me suggest something with which you may disagree violently: that at best the products of human emotion: art — philosophy — politics — music — literature, are interpretations of the world, that tell you more about the guy who’s talking than about the world he’s talking about.

Secondhand views of the world made thirdhand by your interpretation of them. Things like that: — As opposed to this: —

Know what it is? It’s a bunch of amino acids, the stuff that goes to build up a — a worm, or a geranium, or you. This stuff’s easier to take, isn’t it?Understandable; got people in it. This, scientific knowledge, is hard to take because it removes the reassuring crutches of opinion, ideology, and leaves only what is demonstrably true about the world. And the reason why so many people may be thinking about throwing away those crutches is because, thanks to science and technology, they have begun to know that they don’t know so much and that if they’re to have more say in what happens to their lives, more freedom to develop their abilities to the full, they have to be helped towards that knowledge that they know exists and that they don’t possess. And by “helped towards that knowledge”, I don’t mean give everybody a computer and say “help yourself!”

Where would you even start? No, I mean, trying to find ways to translate the knowledge, to teach us to ask the right questions. See, we’re on the edge of a revolution in communications technology that is going to make that more possible than ever before. Or, if that’s not done, to cause an explosion of knowledge that will leave those of us who don’t have access to it as powerless as if we were deaf, dumb and blind.

And I don’t think most people want that. So what do we do about it? I don’t know.

But maybe a good start would be to recognize, within yourself, the ability to understand anything because that ability’s there, as long as it’s explained clearly enough. And then go and ask for explanations. And if you’re thinking right now, “What do I ask for?” Ask yourself if there’s anything in your life that you want changed. That’s where to start.

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Uit The Witness.

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And so, by a backhanded, upside-down argument, was predicted that there is in carbon a level at 7.82 million volts; and then experiments in the laboratory with carbon show indeed that there is. And therefore the existence in the world of all these other elements is very closely related to the fact that there is this particular level in carbon.

But the position of this particular level in carbon seems to us, after knowing the physical laws, to be a very complicated accident
of twelve complicated particles interacting. So I use to illustrate, by this example, that an understanding of the physical laws doesn’t give an understanding in a sense of a — understanding significance of the world in any way.

The details of real experience are very far, often, from the fundamental laws. There are, in a way of speaking in the world —We have a way of discussing the world, which you could call a, we discuss it at various hierarchies, or levels. Now I don’t mean to be very precise, there’s a level, there’s another level, and another level, but I will indicate, by describing a set of ideas to you, just one after the other, what I mean by hierarchies of ideas.

For example, at one end, we have the fundamental laws of physics.

Then we invent other terms for concepts which are approximate, who have, we believe, their ultimate explanation in terms of the fundamental laws. For instance, ‘heat’. Heat is supposed to be the jiggling, and it’s just a word for — a hot thing is just a word for a mass of atoms which are jiggling. For that fundamentally we should think of the atoms jiggling. But for a while, if we’re talking about heat, we sometimes forget about the atoms jiggling — just like when we talk about the glacier we don’t always think of the hexagonal ice snowflakes which originally fell.

Another example of the same thing is a salt crystal. Looked at fundamentally, it’s a lot of protons, neutrons, and electrons; but we have this concept ’salt crystal’, which carries a whole pattern, already, of fundamental interactions. Or an idea like pressure. Now if we go higher up from this, in another level, we have properties of substances — like ’refractive index’, how light is bent when it goes through something; or ’surface tension’, the fact that the water tends to pull itself together, is described by a number. I remind you that we have to go through several laws down to find out that it’s the pull of the atoms, and so on. But we still say it’s ’surface tension’, and don’t worry, when we’re discussing surface tension, of the inner workings — always — sometimes we do, sometimes we don’t.

Go on — up — in the hierarchy. With the water we have the waves and we have a thing like a storm, we have a word ’storm’ which represents an enormous mass of phenomena, or ’sunspot’ or ’star’, which is an accumulation of things.
And it’s not worthwhile always to think of it way back. In fact we can’t, because the higher up we go, we have too many steps in between, each one of which is a little weak, and we haven’t thought them all through yet.

As we go up in this hierarchy of complexity, we get to things like frog, or nerve impulse, which, you see, is an enormously complicated thing in the physical world, involving an organization of matter in a very elaborate complexity. And then we go on, we come to things, words and concepts like ’man’, and ’history’, or ’political expediency’, and so forth, which is a series of concepts that we use to understand things at an ever-higher level.

And going on, we come to things like evil, and beauty, and hope… Now which end is nearer to the ultimate creator, or the ultimate?

So if I make a religious metaphor, which end is nearer to God?

Beauty and hope, or the fundamental laws?

I think that the right way, of course, is to say the whole structural interconnections of the thing is the thing that we have to look at, and that the sequence of hierar — that all the sciences and all the efforts, not just the sciences but all the efforts of intellectual kinds, are to see the connections of the hierarchies, to connect beauty to history, to connect history to man’s psychology, man’s psychology to the working of the brain, the brain to the neural impulse, the neural impulse to the chemistry, and so forth, up and down, both ways.

And today we cannot, and there’s no use making believe we can, draw carefully a line all the way from one end of this thing to the other, in fact we’ve just begun to see that there is this relative hierarchy.

And so I don’t think either end is nearer to God’s.

And that to stand at either end, and to walk out off the end of the pier only, hoping out in that direction is the complete understanding, is a mistake.

And to stand with evil and beauty and hope, or to stand with the fundamental laws, hoping that way to get a deep understanding of the whole world, with that aspect alone, is a mistake.

And it is not sensible either, for the ones who specialize at one end, and the ones who specialize at the other end, to have such disregard for each other. (They don’t actually, but the people say they do. Sorry.)

But that actually, the great mass of workers in between, connecting one step to another, are improving all the time our understanding of the world, both from working at the ends and working in the middle. And in that way we are gradually understanding this connection, this tremendous world of interconnecting hierarchies.

If you expected science to give all the answers to the wonderful questions about what we are, where we’re going,
what the meaning of the universe is and so on, then I think you could easily become disillusioned and then look for some mystic answer to these problems. How a scientist can take a mystic answer I don’t know because the whole spirit is to understand — well, never mind that. Anyhow, I don’t understand that, but anyhow if you think of it, the way I think of what we’re doing is we’re exploring, we’re trying to find out as much as we can about the world.

People say to me, “Are you looking for the ultimate laws of physics?” No, I’m not, I’m just looking to find out more about the world and if it turns out there is a simple ultimate law that explains everything, so be it, that would be very nice to discover.

If it turns out it’s like an onion with millions of layers and we’re just sick and tired of looking at the layers, then that’s the way it is, but whatever way it comes out its nature is there and she’s going to come out the way she is, and therefore when we go to investigate it we shouldn’t pre-decide what it is we’re trying to do except to find out more about it.

If you said your problem is, why do you find out more about it, if you thought you were trying to find out more about it
because you’re going to get an answer to some deep philosophical question, you may be wrong.

It may be that you can’t get an answer to that particular question by finding out more about the character of nature, but I don’t look at it — My interest in science is to simply find out about the world, and the more I find out the better it is.

I like to find out.

There are very remarkable mysteries about the fact that we’re able to do so many more things than apparently animals can do, and other questions like that, but those are mysteries I want to investigate without knowing the answer to them.

And so altogether I can’t believe the special stories that have been made up about our relationship to the universe at large because — they seem to be — too simple, too connected to — Too local! Too provincial! The earth, he came to the earth! One of the aspects of God came to the earth, mind you, and look at what’s out there. How can you — It isn’t in proportion. Anyway, it’s no use arguing, I can’t argue it, I’m just trying to tell you why the scientific views that I have do have some effect on my beliefs. And also another thing has to do with the question of how you find out if something’s true, and if you have all these theories,
the different religions have all different theories about the thing, then you begin to wonder. Once you start doubting,
just like you’re supposed to doubt, you ask me is the science true.

We say no no, we don’t know what’s true, we’re trying to find out, everything is possibly wrong.

Start out understanding religion by saying everything is possibly wrong; let us see. As soon as you do that, you start sliding down an edge which is hard to recover from.

And so with the scientific view, well, my father’s view, that we should look to see what’s true and what may not be true, once you start doubting, which I think to me is a very fundamental part of my soul, is to doubt and to ask, and when you doubt and ask it gets a little harder to believe. You see, one thing is, I can live with doubt and uncertainty and not knowing. I think it’s much more interesting to live not knowing than to have answers which might be wrong.

I have approximate answers and possible beliefs and different degrees of certainty about different things, but I’m not absolutely sure of anything and there are many things I don’t know anything about, such as whether it means anything to ask why we’re here, and what the question might mean.

I might think about it a little bit, if I can’t figure it out, then I go to something else, but I don’t have to know an answer.

I don’t feel frightened by not knowing things, by being lost in the mysterious universe without having any purpose, which is the way it really is so far as I can tell.
Possibly.

It doesn’t frighten me.

 

PSA

Public Service Announcement, voor zij die het niet zouden weten.

Het zou kunnen dat ik de hele boel binnenkort naar Medium migreer, doch de 2000’s stijl van WordPress vind ik ook wel wat hebben.

Ik ben er nog niet helemaal uit, wat denken jullie?

 

Nieuwe regel

Herinner je
Die mensen op de lagere school

Die moeite hadden om te
… weten wanneer een nieuwe regel begon

En
zo
bij
het voorlezen, zeker wanneer een regel zo erg lang werd en bijna tot op het einde
van een pagina viel en zo lekker lang bleef doorgaan,

Totaal iedere vorm van intonatie en structuur verloren?

Heerlijk vond ik dat
Ik dacht: kijk, daarom word ik later beter dan jij

En dan later
Vechten voor het leven
Slim doch niets bereikt

Jij manager, ik in de riool

Tja, kunnen lezen hoeft blijkbaar niet meer, vandaag

Soms

Het zal wel nooit gebeuren
En soms
Hoop ik er stiekem op

Om zo, na mijn dood of zo
Ontdekt te worden

Zo’n beetje als Bukowski

Zo’n beetje zat
Zo’n beetje vreemd

Och ja, fijn…

Maar ergens,
Hoop ik er stiekem wel op

Zo om ontdekt te worden

Maar wel na mijn dood, als het even kan